Update!

Well I haven't posted in a long time about my body and there was a good reason. Nothing was happening. Everything was the same. Except for both Keith and I are pretty down in the dumps. For a while every news we got was bad news and who wants to share that...I get tired of just wah, wah, wah!

Thursday was day 57 of my cycle and I was almost out of weight loss pills so I decided to make another appointment with my Doc to get some more. On the way home from work I picked up my meds that will make me start my period...getting ready to start taking it on day 60 (Sunday, Valentine's Day) I got home and I told Keith I had made an appointment to see the Doc and that there was a chance that he was going to want to start with our next phase of treatment. (I was supposed to see if I could start on my own for 3 months, if that didn't work to start back on Birth Control pills for three months and go from there) I asked Keith if that topic came up what would he want us to do. The look of complete despair and utter disappointment swept across his face when he realized what I was saying. Baby on hold! ...Neither one of us made a decision about what we were going to do when Doc brought it up. I cried a little and we sat in silence. Our only prayer for the past two months was for me to just start on my own. As we sat there we both realized that this was yet again another unanswered prayer....Disappointment and frustration yet again filled our minds. We went to bed.

I never sleep well and this night was no exception. I tossed and turned and never got comfortable.

Keith got up and went to work and left me resting in the bed. I finally got up to start on my day and to get to the docs office. I went to the bathroom...tears immediately fell from my eyes...I had started! I prayed..Dear God please let this be true and not some cruel joke... Praise be to God! It is true. It still is going on and I just can't believe it. I for the first time in a long long time was "soul"fully Happy. I went to the doctor...I had lost 20 pounds..go me! and I told him my story from the night before to that morning...he of course wasn't near as excited as I was...but of course he is a guy and he does this all day long. We talked about what our next step was going to be. After a lot of talking and explaining...I'm sure he was like...Courtney-make a decision already!...but he seemed patient enough on the outside. We decided to give Clomid a try. For those of you that don't know...this is a fertility drug...but it basically makes you ovulate in a proper manner and not who knows when...day 46 or something...instead it is supposed to make you ovulate on day 14 like normal people. I am to start taking the pills on day 3 of my cycle and take it for 5 days...I can only do this for 3 months at a time so for the next three months...pray pray pray!!!

I will try to keep you posted on how this all is going but I have heard that it can possibly make you moody so we will see.

Keith and I are thrilled. On Thursday night we felt forgotten by God and on Friday we were lifting HIM up in Holy Praise!

Thanks to all that have been praying for us...please continue...this is just a tiny step in a long journey.

That is all for now.

Thank you, Dear God, Thank you for remembering us even when we felt far from your presence. You are an Awesome God full of wisdom and power.

Amen