This is long but it explains pretty much everything so....ohh and this can be graphic so don't read it if you don't want to be grossed out!
I found out that I was pregnant on July 21st.
I went to the doctor that Friday and the doctor said I was pregnant but couldn't confirm how far along I was. I had low hormone levels and we would have to wait until I could have an ultra sound to see how far along I really was. By the method of the day of your last period...I was to be due on March 25th or so. They (Doctor's office wanted me to come in again and retake my blood and hormone levels the following week so I went in and again they said the same thing. I was beginning to get worried and confused. The doctor and the nurse would never answer the questions that were flying thru my mind and I ended up having a fight with the nurse and fired them. I found a new doctor that some friends from church use and went to him. I made an appt for the 14th for my first ultra sound and meeting with him. This was on Monday the 3rd. On Tuesday night I went to the bathroom and there was brown goop when I wiped...since it was brown I didn't freak out but kept a watch on it. By wednesday night every fifth wipe or so I had a little bit of red. now...I am freaking out! Thursday morn. I called my doc (the new one) and they got me in that afternoon. After looking at my hormone levels and the fact that I was bleeding some he had me do an internal ultra sound. This showed him that the baby sac had not grown since 4 weeks and I should be at 7 1/2 weeks. He took me to his office and told me that he was 98% sure that I was going to miscarry. He wanted to take some blood to chk my hormone levels to see how quickly the miscarriage was going to occur. I grieved all night and all day on Friday( the sad fact was that I was in charge of the decorations for my best friend at church's baby shower on Saturday so I was making a diaper cake all day long ..weeping over tiny diapers).
On Friday afternoon the nurse called me and told me that Dr. Giddens wanted to see me on Monday...being confused I asked why and she said that my numbers had gone up drastically and unusually and he wanted to recheck them. She said maybe your not going to miscarry after all. I didn't want to get my hopes up but there was a little bit of me that was hoping for this miracle. I went in on Monday and they took some more blood. meanwhile on Sunday...we were to have our care group over to our house so all day long I was working, working, working. My back started to ache that afternoon and I blew it off as being tired and working so hard. By that night I was bleeding more heavily... and this continued to get worse...pain in my back, bleeding and cramps...I was sure by this point that there was no hope. On Tuesday the nurse called me and told me that my numbers had gone up again...much to my surprise. He wanted to see me again on Wednesday morning. I went in on Wed. and he wanted to do a uterine biopsy to see if that would tell us what was going on. When he did this (and by the way...way painful...put that back in your memory so you won't be surprised if you have to have that)...when he went in he said that I was already miscarrying and there was a large amount of tissue lodged at the cervix..he said that when he pulls the biopsy wand out it would more likely pull out some tissue...he did and sure enough it did...I guess since I was hoping for the best I had ignored the amount of blood that was coming out...the majority of my miscarriage happened on that day, Wednesday. I went home and painfully wept all day. He gave me pain medication to help with my terrible cramps and those help a lot. This is def. the worst thing that has ever happened to me...the pain in my heart is sometimes unbearable. I try to keep busy so I don't think about it... I went to work yesterday (Thursday) and I had been planning a surprise baby shower for my other best friend at church both of which are due in a week or so....that shower was last night...I handled it pretty well I think..no tears and only smiles...I can be very strong when I really want to be..haha. Today is the first time that i have been by myself since Wednesday morn. and I will say it is harder this morn. I will get better and I know this pain will ease up with time. The good news about all of this is that since it was an early miscarriage he said that i would be able to try again right away...as soon as I stop bleeding completely I will ovulate and we can try again. and that is what we will do!! WELL... thats what happened...i know this is long and detailed..sorry about the graphics...but i wanted you to know the true story!
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