A Lime's Heartbeat!

Well today I am 12 weeks...officially! My pregnancy calendar newsletter from BabyCenter.com says that my little baby is about the size of a lime a little over 2 inches in length. It is crazy to believe that there is a tiny baby the size of a lime with a heartbeat, hands, fingers, and toes in my gut! The past few weeks have been great...I have not been sick for three weeks and my energy level comes and goes but mostly upbeat! I have been in a great mood and mostly happy again.

The past two weeks I have really felt so great that my mind goes into overdrive thinking that maybe I really am not pregnant and for the past 10 weeks my mind has just been making it up since I wanted to be pregnant so badly...you know that happens on Soap Operas!..I would lay flat on my back...and poke into my gut to try and feel something...but there is toooooooooo much fat in the way...I could never feel a thing. I just had to tell myself that I was crazy and that of course your pregnant still..you haven't had anything happen to make you think that you weren't so just chill!..I would say.. I would have to repeat that to myself...I guess so that I would truly believe! I knew I had my Doctor appointment this Friday and I also knew that we should be able to hear the baby's heartbeat...part of me was super excited...but the dark part of me just knew I wouldn't hear anything! It really sucks to have that feeling in your gut that it is totally possible that my baby did quit growing and wouldn't have a heartbeat...I know..cause I have been there before..not this far along I know but it still happened and I still fear that it might happen again!

So, I had my Doctor appointment today and everything went well. Amazingly! I only had three questions for him today...I am sure he was glad! After the question and answer session...he said.."lets find that heartbeat"...my stomach did a flip! I laid back on the table and he squirted that goooo on my gut(I say gut cause it's not really my belly its much lower in a weird spot!haha)and we waited...and waited...and waited..I finally said...I don't hear anything!...he said be patient!...and we waited some more...my gut was full of goo by this point..and then..he cocked his head toward me and had a very weird facial expression...I would describe it but I can't think of the words to use!...and I heard it! This tiny little sound! A sound that is unlike any sound I've heard before...a sound that brings tears to my eyes right now. There at the doctor's office...I was so relieved! My heart was calm. What an amazing experience!

I am so thankful that my baby...my tiny little lime baby...Has a terrific heartbeat! Our baby is growing and is alive and seems to be doing well...he also said that is sounded like little baby was doing some back flips and moving all around. I just can't get over that I am pregnant...I really am!...after all this time all my heartache...was all cured today by this one tiny lime's heartbeat!

I love you baby and I am so blessed to have you!

ps...bloggers...I will do better about posting from now on!